As another graduation season has come, I’ve had my mailbox and my newsfeed flooded with college graduation pictures and announcements.
These were supposedly Francois Rabelais last words.
This week I finished Looking For Alaska (I know, I’m like, 9 years late. Anyway, great book, highly recommend it if you’re in need of a good ugly cry). The idea of a great perhaps was written over and over through the pages. I don’t get to read much, but I’m glad I read this.
For the longest time, my “great perhaps” was wondering what would have happened if that pregnancy test had been negative back in October 2010, my sophomore year of college. I always wonder if I would have kept my psychology major. Would I have ran my first marathon? Would I have my own place yet? Would Big S and I have a better starting point for Little S and Rae if we had waited? Would I have embarrassed myself even further at the next big drinking weekend? Would I get an internship/job? What about my “friends”, would they have stuck around longer?
There’s a lot of empty spaces left unfilled with college experience.
There’s a lot of empty spaces left unfilled from my adolescence.
But The Great Perhaps that filled those spaces can’t be replaced with experience.
They are the experience.
It’s not what I thought it would be.
But perhaps it’s exactly what it should be.
I can’t frame it and hang it on my wall.
It can’t get me a better job.
It’s not exactly the most glamorous life.
But this is what I’m proud of.
Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you.
1 Thessalonians 5:18