I’ve been thinking a lot about our future. I know the time is near that little s won’t be my only baby. And I know he can’t read. He is a genius, but he’s not quite that advanced. But I wanted to write little s a letter to let him know what he means to big s and I. It’s now printed out and will be framed on his wall soon. So everyday he has a reminder of how much we love him.
Dear little s,
Yes, mommy is having another baby. But I promise everyday I will make time for just you and me. Daddy will take Baby b so we can have time just the two of us. I promise to still let you splash in bath time. And I promise to still pay attention and laugh at you when you fake fall down for the 15th time. And I promise that once there isn’t a baby in my belly anymore, that you can use my stomach as a trampoline again.
I promise I’ll always try to put off laundry and the dishes to make extra playtime with you. I promise I’ll be the bad guy when we play superheros. I’ll read “On the Night You Were Born” 6 times in a row at bedtime, because I know it’s your favorite. I promise to dance with you to the Hot Dog song until you beg me to stop or fall over from exhaustion. And I promise to push you on the swings for as long as you want, because no matter how tired my arms get, your smile is worth it.
I promise to make a fool of myself to make you laugh. Sure, I get strange looks in the grocery store when I’m faking a sneeze and saying “AHCOO!” far too loud. But it’s worth it to get a laugh from you. I’ll always do my silly run towards you, no matter who else is around. I know how it makes you smile.
I promise to let you get messy. And get messy with you too. Because honestly, I want to jump in the mud just as badly as you do. I promise to take in every moment and pretend to like all the little things you do. Because even though I secretly hate 90% of the shows on Disney, you’ll grow out of it far too soon.
I promise to always show you through my actions and words that I love daddy. Because this is really important for you and daddy both. I promise to always respect daddy and make sure you know how incredibly hard daddy works to make sure that we’re okay and have everything we need.
Most importantly, I promise to first and foremost always love you and let you know. Even when you throw milk at the cat. And rub bananas in my hair. I promise I’ll love you when you inevitably break a window with a hockey puck or eat all the food in our fridge. I promise I’ll love you even if you decide to move out one day, but I’ll also be okay if you decide to stay (forever, preferably.).